date: Thursday, September 13, 2007
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Sigh...I've recently been overwhelmed by a wave of depression...or let's just say, unjustifiable sadness...depression's worse compared to sadness..ah well...whatever.
Maybe it's just 'cos my desktop's acting up. Maybe it's just 'cos the stress is building up as the EOYs come near. Maybe, it's just 'cos I'm plained melancholic about some stuff...like the joke that is called my life. Maybe...it's just 'cos...I DIDN'T MAX 3 OUT OF 7 ACE!!! No...
Maybe it's 'cos there wasn't any Debate trainings for some time...argh...I'm just sad...and ant to be left alone...but no, that can't happen.
PCME Lesson: Cope with such thingums by talking to an adult, teacher or friends.
What complete crap.
MaybeI just misss being myself. Yeah, I usually keep my true self at home, taking a facde out to meet everyday life, but as it slowly falters and collapse, who should I exactly turn to? I can't put everything here; I'm not someone who would let you read my life that easily. You may tink that you know me, but seriously, and I can tell you straight in the face, you don't. In fact, perhaps the only one that does is Eric.
I really don't know. Maybe I should just give up on this and be myself. The question is...how? The whole web of intricate lifelines is getting disorientated now. The linear line of life is not appearing to be that linear anymore. Sigh...I really should see a shrink, or admit myself into IMH. My state of mind is not really what I would consider ideal. I think...that's it...
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