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Now Playing: Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy
date: Monday, April 28, 2008
title:
time: 6:27 PM

So amazing...two surprises in one day. Not to say that both are nice ones. Okay...so...

1) SLC
2) Chinese Drama Competition

1) SLC
I'm nominated for 14th SLC! That is so totally way cool! SLC =/= Service Learning *Whatever the C is*, but Student Leaders' Convention! I mean, seriously. It's a leadership opportunity of a lifetime. I knew I was right not to go for CAP. Ha! I pwn :) Muakakakakakakaka. It sure takes off the stress of not finishing the Bio paper...(reminding me of which, it's damn screwed. Don't talk to me about it)

2) Chinese Drama Competition
Held only for the Sec 2 level (goodness knows why), I'm in it =.=''. Oh damn. I don't want to talk about it.

So there.



date: Sunday, April 27, 2008
title:
time: 10:33 PM

Pleasant suprise during church today. Darlene Zschech WAS A GUEST WORSHIP LEADER TODAY! It was so great. Especialy enjoyed Hosanna and Shout to the Lord. :) Going to listen to it now. Bye! *Shory post, but I have Bio test...*



date: Friday, April 25, 2008
title:
time: 11:36 PM

JGs Finals today. It was a great debate, in Max's, Cheng Aik's and Benjy's last ever debate in their secondary debating careeer. And even though we lost by a 4-1 split (which effectively put us 4th), it was by far the best debate ever in the history of Hwa Chong Debate. Best of all, Max and Li Ki got 5th and 3rd best speaker respectively. This shows how hcdb8 has the propensity to PWN. Best of all, Mr Quek came to support us today! Thanks Mr Quek! :DDD

Now that JGs is over, a new team rises from the shadows
The shadows of uncertainty no longer creeps around this team, instead stepping into the light
The light of assurance and power
The light of confidence is now shining upon this team
As it marches on into the U14s
Beware competitors
The lurking tigers in the dark
The gleaming eyes of the panther
The precision of the archer fish
Beware, o competitors
For the hcdb8 has sent out
the wedgys team!

Haha...jsut for un. But jokes aside...move aside people.
The wedgys team is here.
And we're here to win.



date: Wednesday, April 23, 2008
title:
time: 11:02 PM

the team will do our best and ww dun forget, u ARE in the team. our batch is always a TEAM
-Yi Chen
Despite knowing that in my heart all the while, it is quite touching to actually hear someone tell me that. Thanks Yi Chen :) I'm touched, really.
Of course, I shall now expound on Yi Chen's oh-so-valid statement. Okay...I'll break it down...
The team will do our best
Obviously you have to do your best. YOU'RE OUT THERE TO PWN! Sheesh kebab (as I quote the U14s captain), honestly. Please, do the club a favour and win it (U14s 2008). Don't worry, no pressure. :) *Grins maniacally*
WW dun forget, you ARE in the team
Awww....thanks Yichen! :DDD It's nice that someone tells me that...wedgys forever! :DDD I mean, I do know it, I just needed confirmation from the edgys :) Oh oh oh! How's this: I'm the third reserve! :DDD Yeah! Third Reserve! XD If you guys win, I DEMAND to do the morning announcement! Rawr.
Our batch is always a TEAM
And you can never be any closer to the truth. wedgys is there for a reason. we're the wedgys, and the wedgys will stick together no matter what! Of course, we have ups and downs sometimes, but we're still wedgys at the end of the day! Imagine...if any one of us disappeared from debate...
I leave --> edgys
Edward leaves --> wdgys
Darion leaves --> wegys
Glendon leaves --> wedys
Yi Chen leaves --> wedgs
Shaun leaves--> wedgy
Uh. It's so horrible just to think about this. *shakes head violently to get thought out*
On a lighter note, the Sec 1s want their own anagram! :DDD
Tommy --> T
Han Peow --> H
Eddy --> E
Luey Chi --> L
Daniel --> D
Jek Jin --> J
Jia Kai --> J
Put them together and you get:
THELDJJ.
Liki complains that there's not enough vowels. We should have recruited people with surnames that start with 'O' or 'A'. Ah well. Better luck next time Sec 1s!
On another side note, I'm going to end each post with a quote nowadays. So, let's begin!
Worth
Just because you are necessary does not mean you are important.



date:
title:
time: 5:25 PM

The D-Days have descended upon us once again...and I shall blog every test on it.

1) English Common Test (24/4)
2) Biology Test (28/4)
3) Literature Test (2/5)
4) Geography Test (2/5)
5) Maths Test (6/5)
6) IS Test (7/5)

1) English Common Test
ZOMG! IT'S TOMORROW! AND IT'S COMPREHENSION! Argh! I can't do comprehension well at all! Bleh. I hate comprehension, 'cos it's so difficult to score, and it's so rigid! If only it was composition, it'd be so much easier, dammit.

2) Biology Test
Jennifer Ting says she's going to be sadistic. Let's all mug: Transport in Living Things and Digestion. It'll be one crazy weekend...
Quote: "Mr Lim's a man of faith!"

3) Literature Test
I have to read my buke, seriously. Lalalala.

4) Geography Test
"Mr Lim is a man of faith!"...

5) Maths Test
PT, AM, SE, FI...
PT = Pythagoras Theorem
AM = Algebraic Manupliation
SE = Simultaneuous Equation
FI = Further Indices

6) IS Test
Shit.



date: Tuesday, April 22, 2008
title:
time: 9:31 PM

I'm sad. I'm happy. I'm sad. I'm happy. I'm sad. I'm happy. I'm sad. I'm happy.

Final verdict: I'm both sad and happy.
I'll now talk about them (my blogging powress has returned. Rawr.)

1) Youth-14s Team
2) Chinese Test

1) Youth-14s Team
Yup, I didn't make it. I'm not in the U-14s team. Oh well, life has its ups and downs, you just can't predict when. I'll take this not as an obstacle, but as an opportunity. After all, this is kind of expected. There are 6 Sec 2s (WEDGYS! --> W=Woon Wei, E=Edward, D=Darion, G=Glendon, Y=Yichen, S=Shaun), and only 5 can be chosen. Alas, it was me who was not included in this competition (I REFUSE to use left out 'cos I AM NOT). But I'm okay. I had this theory that I would not be included:

Edward, Darion and Glendon are the imba ones, so they'll be in the team. Shaun is the best of the remaining three, so he's in. Yichen is by far more committed than I am, so he's in as well. The only one that is left is me!

Yep, that's my theory. It was also pretty expected though. When Benjy was talking about how the last one should not feel left out, he was constantly looking in my direction, so I pretty much expected that too. It's amazing how much you can infer from body language when you understand it. Anyway, I'm not going to let this break me down. I quote Cascada's Perfect Day:
'Cos I'm alright, yeah yeah
I don't mind, yeah yeah
Baby you're no longer creeping in my head, yeah yeah
Say I'm okay, yeah yeah
I'm on my way, yeah yeah
And it's time for me to face that perfect,
The perfect,
The perfect day
I'm okay EDGYS! :) WEDGYS FOREVER! :) I quote myself:
wedgys is forever and ever!ワッドジーは死にないです!
I'll do research!
I'll contribute!
I'll do anything! :D
The sad part to it is that I'm never going to attend U-14s in my whole debating career *sniff sniff*. I'm 14, for goodness sake! Bleh.

2) Chinese Test
I got 71 for my test! That is GREAT! :DDD I can't believe it at all, 'cos I only studied the night before, AND 30 min before the test (I promptly gave up on it, so...). I screened Yuan Zhi and I got 71. He got 57. Yuan Zhi (and Darion), WORK HARD FOR THE NEXT TEST OKAY? :DD
I'm holding a mass mugging session for EVERY EXAMINABLE SUBJECT WHICH HAS NOT BEEN TESTED NEXT MONDAY. ANYONE INTERESTED?
Yes, now to mug History.

There. I have not fully exhausted my powress yet, but for now, I'll just stick with this. I NEED TO REVISE MY HISTORY. See ya people! :)



date: Monday, April 21, 2008
title:
time: 8:25 PM

I got a new wallet! :)

That's a real big thing, taking that I hadn't changed it since last year. And it looks great! :D

Oh well, back to KAP :(



date: Saturday, April 19, 2008
title:
time: 11:34 PM

Bleh. Corinne May's songs are absolutely fabulous. Especially her latest album. Fabulous, her works.

I'm bored. Doing Quah's functional writing assignment. Bleh. My first writing assignment for her. Must give her Quahlity work.

Urgh. We lost to RI for semis. I hate this. So I'll bitch about it right now.

The debate was by far one of the more intellectual and proper debates in the Arena (that I've attended). It was just another form of affirmative action debate. Just that it's about women. Putting women in senior positions because there are not enough of them in these places.

So they drew up a policy, with flexible measures. In my opinion, it's just covering their *****.

But never mind. No point bitching about something you cannot change. Bleh.



date: Wednesday, April 16, 2008
title:
time: 8:48 PM

Amazingly, I'm posting for the second time today. Wow, I must be really free =.=''.

I don't know what to post. The power to post LOOOOONG posts have left me, perhaps until something becomes so personal that I really need to talk about...bleh.

This is bad...but hey, since I was procrastinating for so many days...and I still cannot get myself to post. So I'll share a video!


It's so cute!




date:
title:
time: 4:14 PM

ZOMG. I just realised this is the first time since the start of 2008 that I went home BEFORE 2! And to think yesterday I was mourning about how if I could leave for home at 3, I'd be lucky. :)

I think I'll change blogskin again! Detonatedlove's blogskins are great! :D



date: Monday, April 14, 2008
title:
time: 5:41 PM

A puzzle is not a puzzle until you start solving it.
A song is not a song until you sing it.
Love is not here to stay.
Love is not love...
Until you give it away.

That was from Pastor Prince...amazing, but I can't help but put it in this post. =)
Anyway, Spelling Bee is tomorrow, and I'm also supposed to meet Zhou Li Da. I'm such a genius. =/
Let's see...things to do:
1) Give YC a crash course for The Mage
2) Convince all of 2G to bid for The Mage
3) Ask Glendon about the excursion for The Mage
4) Go on a dry run with Glendon for the excursion for The Mage
5) Make sure Jekjin and ChiChi knows what to do for Term 3's The Mage
6) Do Spelling Bee Finals Action Plan
7) Do Spelling Bee Finals Round 4 stuff

The Mage = The Mage, The Prophet and The Nuclear Bomb

Yay. I'm so screwed.
But at least it's not so bad after buying 4 books from Borders =)

More reading to do. Yay :)



date: Friday, April 11, 2008
title: Romantic Tearjerker...?
time: 8:27 PM

Ouch. I hate this. I'm staying in school right now, supposedly doing the 24 hour Script Writing Competition, but yet my mind isn't with me. Not because the people all around me are playing DotA or anything, but it's cos of the impromptu debate. Rather, the semi-finals.

[EDITED AS OF 9.30PM]
This is so damn frustrating. We lost. Unanimous. Nettie Choo best speaker perhaps.
AND IT'S EUTHANASIA! :(



date: Thursday, April 10, 2008
title:
time: 10:17 PM

I may have changed your status.

I may have removed you from the siblings' area.

But you're still welcome to come back to us.

And at that time, we'll be there waiting for you.

With open arms.



date: Wednesday, April 9, 2008
title:
time: 10:19 PM

Hmm...I guess I'm not really in the best of moods to blog after doing Peer-to-Peer Evaluation.

So I'll procrastinate till tomorrow.



date: Tuesday, April 8, 2008
title:
time: 10:49 PM

I JUST HATE LOVE THE HWA CHONG WEBSITE. NOT.

Cos it:

1) Corrupted my files
2) Killed my thumbdrive
3) Destroyed all traces of data in my thumbdrive
4) Made me not able to do anything without fearing more than half the time it'll be deleted

I hate it.

Doing Spelling Bee AGAIN.

At this rate, I'm going to screw up, real bad.



date: Monday, April 7, 2008
title:
time: 7:48 PM

This was a conversation between a US naval ship and Canadian authorities off the coast of Newfoundland in late 1995.

Canadians: Please divert your course 15 degrees to the south to avoid a collision.

Americans: Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to the north to avoid a collision.

Canadians: Negative. You will have to divert your course 15 degrees to the south to avoid a collision.

Americans: This is the captain of a US Navy ship. I say again, divert YOUR course.

Canadians: No, I say again, you divert YOUR course.

Americans: This is the Aircraft Carrier US LINCOLN, the second largest ship in the United States Atlantic Fleet. We are accompanied with three Destroyers, three Cruisers and numerous support vessels. I DEMAND that you change your course 15 degrees north. I say again, that's one-five degrees north, or counter-measures will be undertaken to ensure the safety of this ship.
Canadians: This is a lighthouse. Your call.
_____________________________________________________

MAN: "Hello"

WOMAN: "Honey, it's me. Are you at the club?"

MAN: "Yes"

WOMAN: "I am at the mall now and found this beautiful leather coat. It's only $1,000. Is it OK if I buy it?"

MAN: "Sure, go ahead if you like it that much."

WOMAN: "I also stopped by the Mercedes dealership and saw the new 2004 models. I saw one I really liked."

MAN: "How much?"

WOMAN: "$60,000"

MAN: "OK, but for that price I want it with all the options."

WOMAN: "OK. I'll see you later! I love you!"

MAN: "Bye, I love you too."

The man hangs up.The other men in the locker room are looking at him in astonishment.Then he asks: "Anyone know who this phone belongs to?"
_______________________________________________________________

Conversation Between Moses and God

"Excuse me, sir."

"Is that you again, Moses?"

"I'm afraid it is, sir."

"What is it this time, Moses. More computer problems?"

"How did you guess?"

"I don't have to guess, Moses. Remember?"

"Oh, yeah. I forgot."

"Tell me what you want, Moses."

"But you already know. Remember?"

"Moses!"

"Sorry, sir."

"Well, go ahead, Moses. Spit it out!"

"Well, I have a question, sir. You know those ten things you sent me."

"You mean the commandments, Moses?"

"That's it. I was wondering if they were important."

"What do you mean 'were important', Moses? Of course, they are important. Otherwise I wouldn't have sent them to you."

"Well, sorry, but I lost them. I could say the dog ate them, but of course you would see right through that."

"What do you mean 'you lost them'! Are you trying to tell me you didn't save them, Moses?"

"No, sir. I forgot."

"Well, My Son always saves, Moses."

"Yeah, I know. You told me that before. I was going to, but I forgot. I did send them to some people before I lost them though."

"And did you hear back from any of them?"

"You already know I did. What about the one guy who said he never uses 'shalt not'. Can he change the words a little bit?"

"Yes, Moses. As long as he doesn't change the meaning."

"And what about the guy who thought your stance was a little harsh and recommended calling them the Ten Suggestions or letting people pick one or two to try for a while?"

"Moses, I'll act like I didn't hear that."

"I think that means, 'no'. Well, what about the guy who said I was scamming him?"

"I think that is spamming, Moses."

"Oh, yeah. I emailed him back and told him I don't even eat that stuff and I have no idea how you can send it to someone through a computer."

"And what he did say?"

"You know what he said. He used Your name in vain. You don't think he might have sent me one of those plagues and that's the reason I lost those ten things, do you?"

"They're called viruses, Moses."

"Whatever! This computer stuff is just too much for me. Can we just go back to those stone tablets? It was hard on my back taking them out and reading them each day, but I never lost them."

"We'll do it the new way, Moses."

"I was afraid you would say that, sir."

"Moses, what did I tell you to do if you messed up?"

"You told me to hold up this rat and stretch it out toward the computer."

"It's a mouse, Moses. Mouse! Mouse! And did you do that?"

"No, I decided to try the technical support first. After all, who knows more about this stuff than you, and I really like your hours. By the way, sir, did Noah have two of these mice on the ark?"

"No, Moses."

"One other thing. Why didn't you name them frogs instead of mice, because didn't you tell me the thing they sit on is a pad?"

"I didn't name them, Moses. Man did, and you can call yours a frog if you want to."

"Oh, that explains it. Kind of like Adam, huh, sir? I bet some woman told him to call it a mouse. After all, wasn't it a woman who named one of the computers Apple?"

"Say goodnight, Moses."

"Wait a minute, sir. I am stretching out the mouse and it seems to be working. Yes, a couple of the ten things have come back."

"Which ones are they, Moses?"

"Let's see. 'Thou shalt not steal from any grave an image' and 'Thou shalt not uncover thy neighbor's wife.'"

"Turn the computer off, Moses. I'm sending you another set of stone tablets. How does 'same day air' sound?"

Ripped from Izumi's blog (without his permission). Doinbg KAP now, yet taking time off blogging. You should be grateful.

Naw. Justkidding.



date: Sunday, April 6, 2008
title: 3NGLES 2008
time: 9:07 PM

This post is so totally overdue, but ah heck. Let's talk about it anyway. 3NGLES 2008 totally rocks! :DD Especially with an OS like Pris jiejie :)

Anyway, being part of the OT for 3NGLES is an experience like no other, honest. To think that just one year ago, I was a participant of this very programme. Now, I'm part of the Organising TEAM. That was so damn cool. :)

[Before I move on, I CAN'T ACCESS IMEEM :(]

And it's glad to see Group 3 alumni (at least for the participating ones) all participating in this year's competition! Pei Wei as usher, Dileen as emcee, and myself as runner (pretty contradictory, huh?)! And Group 3 this year (for finals at the least) was coached by ME! Muahahahahaha :) They got third! 3rd! T.H.I.R.D.! They were the TOP 3! Ha! Group 3 rocks! :) Two year straight record!

And iSheet performance rocked! :) Zahrah wrote out her last minute introduction which went well! And we were freestyling all the way...with lines interjected here and there. But never mind, as long as the audience don't know, IT DOESN'T MATTER! :)

Then, let's talk about the OT! Priscilla was like complete PWNAGE, in more ways than one *tsktsk*! Joyce...random smiles! XD Yarn Kit...haha. Let's leave it that way.

Whee...it was fun, and the process was what I enjoyed, with the end result just another addition to the flavour (as I type flavour, I was thinking of pronouncing it as flah-ver) of success!

All the visits to SCGS was unforgettable. Thanks for the times guys (and gals) :)

Things to post left (I'm trying to clear up everything):
- Project's Day Prelims
- JGs Semis
- Induction Camp



date: Saturday, April 5, 2008
title:
time: 8:35 PM

We broke into the semis! :DD

I know it's a little late, but I just came back from ProEd Induction Camp! :DD

It was fun...BUT I NOW HAVE A LOT OF HOMEWORK TO CATCH UP ON! :(

Anyway, I'm the OS of ProEd Induction Camp 2009...:)

GAMBATTE NE! :DD

Tired...blog more tomorrow.

FTW HCDB8!



date: Wednesday, April 2, 2008
title:
time: 9:21 PM

DisorderRating
Paranoid Disorder:Low
Schizoid Disorder:Low
Schizotypal Disorder:Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:Low
Borderline Disorder:Low
Histrionic Disorder:Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:Low
Dependent Disorder:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Moderate

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Feeling better now. Thanks to Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence, Save Me and At the Beginning. And thanks Luey Chi and Jek Jin. :) It helps.



date: Tuesday, April 1, 2008
title:
time: 11:07 PM

200th post. Never expected it to be the second post of a day, and I was hoping to celebrate it. But no. I do suppose it helps in a way...read this, especially if you're in the group Funky Fillers...


-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
woonwei!
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
stop 'preparing powerpoint presentations' and get to researching!
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
>
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
XD
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
i know
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
lol
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
hey
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
inside news
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
the judges (not me) like your proj very much k
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
im doing interviewing as well. i DIDNT DO THE JOB ALLOCATION SLIDE! XD
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
whee
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
it's somthing unique
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
yay :)
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
so you guys don't waste this
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
okay. got it
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
pull it off well, and let's put it this way: your project has the kind of people and prep and topic that sent mine into grand finals
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
so don't waste it
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
okay
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
thanks :)
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
yeah
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
jia you
# woonwei # a mutiliation of the soul says:
=D=D=D=D
-= Gaius Calpurnius Piso =- moosette! says:
...

Oh. The smiles? It's simple to put it on MSN. You don't need to show it with your face anyway.



date:
title:
time: 10:20 PM

This is crazy, and it's killing me inside out.
I know I don't show much emotions, perhaps happiness, anger, indifference and perhaps shock. But never sadness...sorry. This is totally random, so I hope that you'll just take some time and read if you bother. If you don't, might as well. I don't really care.

Anyway, as I was saying...every emotion I cannot supress...only sadness. Sadness is like a drug, a cigarette. Once you try it, you get hooked. You always go back for more. And yet, I was taught from young never to try drugs, NOR cigarettes.

And I haven't. I've been a good boy, until now. Recently, I've started taking drugs, I've began smoking cigarettes. Psychological drugs. Emotional cigarettes. I've been hooked, and it gets harder day by day just trying to hide the fact that I'm sad.

Yes, in case you were wondering, I AM human. Just because I tell anyone who is frigging sad to be happy does NOT represent, nor IMPLY that I am not SAD. Look. What happened today is killing me. From the inside.

I feel hypocritical, I feel like I've just committed a greater sin than murder - lie. The feeling is called GUILT. No , I don't cry. But yes, it kills me from the inside when I find out that I've hurt someone, or lied. Don't think just because I can lie with a straight face means I don't experience guilt.

This pposed to be April's Fools Day. How apt. I feel like a fool. A fool to believe that all things can be solved with a smile and lots of comfort. In the past, I may not have understood what sadness meant, for I've never taken that first pill, nor blew my first smoke, but now that I did, I'm hooked.

And yes, comfort would do just fine now. Only that I have no one to turn to...do I? It's around time I woke up to the harsh realities of life. Not everything can be solved with just comforting words, nor "THE BIMBO FAMILY LOVES YOU! :DD".

I'm just so lost right now. I need to find direction in life again. Only then can I move on. But for now, I'm hooked.

To those involved just now: I hope you don't feel annoyed that we did that, nor feel guilty. We didn't mean for that to happen, we just wanted to talk. Never did we expect that we would turn to such a sensitive topic. We know some of you may feel 'arrowed' or directly implicated, but do realise that if you guys don't have that bond, you'll never be able so succeed. I'm sorry, and well...sorry.


Something is telling me this isn't enough. Nor is writing letters to each and every one of them. The damage is done, the dust is settling.

You guys may think I don't care...but in truth, I do. And it's killing me inside. Out.